idk what to say.

i'm ashamed.
i've been so selfish.

to think that i wanted to keep you for my own gain, making you suffer so much.
to think that i didn't even care abt your feelings..
to think that i... was oblivious to all that pain...

i wasn't even there when you needed us.

i'm sorry, we really shouldn't have left that day.
we should've been next to you, holding you tight.
10 hours made so much difference.

thinking back,
it's better that you left.
it had been painful for you, i know.
i'm just glad that you're free of the pain now.

i'm really sorry, will you forgive me?

i'll miss you. so much.
thanks for everything that you have done for us.

for the 2nd time this year... i'm really... crying.