ugh

can't believe that i was living a lie for close to 2 years.

i'm disgusted.

boring

sch hols have started unofficially, since i only have to go to sch on tues for 3hrs for gp movie screening and fri for some talk. hahahahah awesomeeeee.

i'm glad the official lessons are over thou; this means that i won't have to see my horrible marks for the last lecture tests till after the common tests. haiz, well well well no doubt i'm still struggling in school. but i hope that it'd all get better soon, real soon, coz my strength is wearing out. :(

i guess i managed to survive school coz of friends. :) to think that i had a prejudiced view that the ppl from my sch would be mean/ selfish/ super compatitive etc but well, i was not totally right. i'm glad that those who are my friends do not really possess that of the above qualities. perfection is impossible, but at least they're nice and helpful. :)

that's life for me till date in a school filled with dull shades of grey. hope ya'll are enjoying yourself in yr new sch! :)

and, really, wt_ is wrong with you?!?!?

"孩子,我为什么打你"

but just now, i heard incessant shriekings of a child,
"妈妈!对不起! 我下次不敢le!"

it stopped for awhile, then continued later on, stopped again, then continued, with the shrieks of the child growing louder each time. i could feel his agony and pain. it was so immerse. haiz maybe he was in the wrong, but as an outsider, i feel so much for him.

this made me think of the chapter in our chinese textbook with the above title....
"孩子, 打与不打都是爱, 你可懂得?"
:( :( :(

alright, sadness aside, i'm suddenly reminded of the chinese test i'll be having tmr... and friday. shit.

pissed

ok so i was late last friday.

reached sch at 7.42.

srsly, i didnt know that reaching at this time was considered late lah.
aiiyoooooo.

ok so late still nvm, it's my fault for reaching the bus stop unusually early but missing the bus coz it came unusually earlier. then the next bus came 25 mins later, 10 mins later than usual. ya lah all my fault.

upon reaching, i saw 1 student holding a file and 1 teacher standing next to him at the nextball court. he was to record my name. oh well. i guessed as much.

then right, i thought we could leave to the assembly ground or sth, so i started walking away. both the teacher and student said sth to me:

student: oh, you'll have to stay. (in a really nice, somewhat apologetic voice)
teacher: where do you think you are going?

just look at the contrast man. the teacher was so bloody rude.

like totally wt_ you could've been nicer so what if i'm late i didn't know i had to stay. you didn't have to make it sound like i was some convict trying to escape from jail right. fold your arms and give me the duapai look some more. i was so pissed, but what could i do? i just glared. haiz, i really have no courage. oh whatever, you're on my blacklist now.

go and sc lah you. scscscscscscscsc. (hahaha shinfen hahaha) SC!

Life

hiiiii i just woke up not long ago lol i'm such a pig.

ever since jc life started w real timetables and all, i've been ruining my bio clock. but what to do! i'm just so tired every day night when i reach home. so i simply fall alsleep aft eating dinner and jolt awake at some random time, start panicking and chionging my tutorials. that's life for you. damn sian. so no life can. how long has it been since i last went on a real shopping trip? :( i can't even remember.

heh heh i can't wait for next week! besides the 3 lecture tests, the timetable specially for nxt week is awesome. i get to go to school at 1.30pm and leave at 3.30pm on mon, and this routine is abt the same for the rest of the week HAAHAHAHA fantastic. :) :)

ohh and cliched as it may seem, i'm really relieved that i saw the light at the end of the tunnel. HOW LONG HAVE I BEEN LOST ALR HUH. it was horrible, all those struggles in vain. buttttt now, at least, i get sth in return. like finally. :)

but i'm so scared that i'll lose sight of it again. :(

happy 17th, annabel!

haha $123 cake from Swiss. :D

hope that you had a great advanced birthday!

LOVE YA SWEEIEPIE! AND CLIQUE 7!! :D

just glad that everything fell into place.

so glad. :)