what to do?

i'm so afraid to speak my mind nowadays coz there's always a 90% chance that i'd have to eat my words. its really irritating and exasperating to not have the courage to speak directly from my heart. the words that i want to say have to be filtered in my mind at least 3 times before they are uttered. sigh. doesn't feel too good to always be so hesitant also.

but where am i going to find that courage, given the scars from past experiences..?

supposed elegy

goodbye pw, i will miss you... NOT.
goodbye pw, and good riddance.